| I say I'm not |
[May. 8th, 2011|02:38 am] |
Giving up on us.
Stress x 100 |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2011|04:46 pm] |
To describe the night:
Frustration.
Feel like a ball of unhappiness that has been building up for quite some time.
Why m I never ever satisfied with whatever I have? |
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| AND ON THE 3RD DAY |
[Feb. 24th, 2011|10:11 pm] |
DEAR GOD,
ITS MY 3RD DAY.
GIMME STRGTH TO HANG ON.
ITS NOT THAT BAD.VERY INTERESTING SCOPE
JUST THE WERK HOURS ARE GOING TO BE BAD
NEEDA PREPARE THYSELF OVER N OVER AGAIN
AMEN |
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| thought missiles fire away! |
[Feb. 13th, 2011|05:25 pm] |
So I'm abt to make a rather life changing decision.
To take the furniture position, reject the dev co, email the consultancy firm to say no, and call up the sch to tell them I'm not gg for the interview tml( still contemplating on this).
I know I'm making the right decision but why do I feel vex?
I feel that I'm giving up future opprtunities that may not even exist?
Sighs, it feels like the right decision but m I doing it for the wrong reasons?
This is so hard and texing on me.
Mel says I complain when no one calls me.
I complain when I've got too much to handle.
Golly, I'm such a complain-er.
It simply boils down to my personality.
If I have to make a decision using my brain its tougher.
Always find matters of the heart easier to resolve.
I guess im not in a rut for a'heart' issue that's why I say its easier.
Anyhoo. I also always want everything, that's why its tough.
I need positivity to come back. I've been too muuch of a negative channel of late. |
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| boredom kills |
[Jan. 23rd, 2011|04:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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I'm bored out of my wits.
Having just read wizard of oz,
I feel like I'm living in kansas
And need to be whisked away by a cyclone.
I need an adventure.
Or maybe just a job.
I have never done nth for 2 weeks.
Every hollyday I work ever since I was 16.
Except maybe some poly hols but they were a mth.
disconnectivity is essential to reduce reliance.
Are we still always on the same page? |
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